Will you spend the rest of your life with me?

I don't want just anyone to ask me this. There is a specific person that I want to hear it from. Yeah. I'm a cheesy romantic girl. So sue me.

My niece, Paige Josephine, was born Thanksgiving morning. :) She's the most beautiful baby in the world. :) Yep.

I love the fact that even though my sissy is preggers and married she still needs me. :) It's nice when I get the late night text messages asking if I can talk because she's depressed. It makes my life a little better knowing we're still as close as ever. <333

Some asshole hit my cat with their car! I hate them! I hate them, I hate them, I HATE THEM!!!!! I detest them. Loathe them. Why? Because I had to watch my poor baby suffer in some strangers lawn while I could do nothing but watch helplessly. And of course Hanford fucking FAILS in their vet care since they have no emergency centers and the nearest one is in visalia. He died on the way there. My poor baby. I want him back. So I've been crying since like...9 tonight. my eyes are all swollen, my head hurts, my nose is kind of bleeding, and my throat hurts. I hate them. I hate them so much for taking my baby away.

I'm selling a bunch of my old manga as well as a few other things. I don't read it anymore. So I figure why hold on to it? There are pictures. I realize they're bass ackwards. I took them with the camera on my MacBook. lol.

I'm selling:

Yu-Gi-Oh Volumes 1-7 ($4 individual. $28 for the set)



Yu-Gi-Oh DUELIST Volumes 1-6 ($4 individual. $24 for the set)



Happy Hustle High Volumes 1-4 ($5 for the individuals. $20 for the set)



Chobits Volumes 1-3 ($5 for the individual. $15 for the set)




My Name is America: The Journal of James Edmond Pease
Dear America: The Diary of Remember Patience Whipple ($5 individual. $10 for both)



Math Smart Junior ($6)



Painless Algebra($4)




Orlando Bloom & Keira Knightly POTC Poster. ($10)


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*Paypal is preferred but I will accept money orders.
*Please contact me at: xoxo.exoh@hotmail.com

Love, hmm? Well...to me it's caring for someone's good qualities and imperfections equally. Understanding that they aren't perfect but are perfectly willing and able to see past it. It's having your own opinions and respecting the other person's while still listening to their point of view with an open mind. It's that unspoken understanding that no matter what they've done in the past, it's the person they are today that makes you care for them. And forgiving those past mistakes. It's wanting to spend most of your time with them while also maintaining independence. It's something that strengthens all of the relationships you happen to be in. Not just the romantic one. It's being completely open and vulnerable to one another and trusting that they won't intentionally hurt you. And it's so many other things that can't be explained.
I feel this way because I love someone very much and I feel that way and more for him. And of course I haven't always felt this way. I never really understood what my attached friends meant when they said it's difficult to explain until you've felt it for yourself. And it's true. Now that I've felt it, I find it extremely difficult to articulate. All I can really say is that it's spectacular and frightening at the same time.

dunno if i made a point to write it in here, but katie is having a little girl. :) naming her carrie lynn. i can't wait! i'm going to have a niece! :D yay!

So my 20th birthday was Saturday (the 24th). It was alright.

Katie and Corey gave me an adorable gift. :) I've named him Seeley. (As in Agent Seeley Booth on Bones. NOT the Sealy mattress.)

You know he's darling. :)




He's about 2 months old. And 2 and a half pounds of trouble. lol. As I type this, he has tried to help me and then proceeded to jump on my shoulder. He seems to think he's a parrot. hehe.

My roommate got me concert tickets. My godfather gave me money. And my cousins gave me cards. (and a starbucks card) :) Yeah. Nifty.

UGH. SO! My back was killing me today. For a while, it hurt from the middle of my back to my toes. Now it's from the middle of my back to my hips or so. And the pain is less intense than it was. I almost got stuck on the toilet after peeing it was so bad. Yeah. Kind of funny though. Pointless post. Just thought I'd share.

So I'm here in Cambria for my bff's wedding. It's tomorrow. And I'm terrified. It's such a big change. I'm so excited for her...but I'm sad too. For the past 13 years it's been just the two of us. And now we won't be able to go out at 2 am for Taco Bell just because she's pissed off at a boyfriend. We won't be going on road trips just because we feel like it. I'm going to miss it. But now she's going to be a wife and a mother. It's so weird. I can't comprehend it yet. But no matter what, I'm so excited for her, I think Corey is a wonderful guy, and I'll always love the hell out of her. She's my sister after all. :]

i be hungry!!!!!! FEEEEEEEEED MEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!

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LOL! Why would anyone want to come to this little podunk town anyway? The only things we have are Superior Dairy, a decent library, and a Carnegie Museum small enough to fit in my bathtub! XD

Greatest news EVER! My best friend is PREGNANT!!!!! :D I am soooooo excited! I'm going to be an auntie! WOOOO!!!!

I have met one of the strongest people ever. She's amazing. I admire the shit out of her.

Mehhh I feel like craaaaaap today! Ugh. My neck hurts. SO! I decided to look up my symptoms on web md. And web md says that if I'm experiencing neck pain I should see emergency medical attention...or something along those lines. But I don't much feel like driving to the er only to have them poke me and say "We don't know what's wrong with you...go home." They suck. And on top of it all, I'm very depressed today. Been crying off and on all night. Bleck. Maybe I'll just go to bed.

life is beginning to calm down, finally. I'm exhausted but I'm picking myself up. it's just rough. I don't adjust to change very well so i'm incredibly depressed. fortunately i've gotten pretty good at hiding it. On the bright side, spring break is next week. YAY! :)

So my life has been completely turned upside-down and into knots. Not only are my parents getting divorced but at 6 am Thursday morning I had 5 cops rush into my bedroom pointing their guns and flashlights at me, screaming "Federal search warrant, get out of bed." Now my dad is in jail and our house is still a mess from their 4 hour search. I'm staying at Kate's mom's house. And I don't know how much longer I can go on like this. I'm so depressed. It's making me physically hurt and ill. I haven't slept in 3 days. I only eat when Toni makes me, other than that, I'm not hungry. I feel like everything is crashing down around me. I feel like I'm worthless. A burden on Toni, Steve, Pam, and Keith. All I do is sit around and cry. I feel like everything I love the most is being ripped away from me. I feel like the people I love the most are pulling away from my crazy emotional self and I wouldn't blame them. I'm tired of crying all the time. I feel so weak. Like I'm alone and I can't pull myself back up. Everything has fallen apart. I feel like I'm losing everything. Everything! Now I'm even more desperate to find a job so I can pay the bills. I'm so terrified. Even as I type this I'm getting all weepy. I just don't know how much longer I can go on in this much pain....I want it all to end. I want this whole ordeal to be some horrible nightmare so I can wake up in my own bed with everything the way it's supposed to be. I hate feeling so needy and clingy. Like I just want to hold on to the nearest person and never let go. Like a child. My heart is broken. My life is in pieces. My mind is exhausted. My family is broken. I'm experiencing the worst depression I've experienced in a while. I don't know what to do anymore.

PS don't ask why my dad is in jail. If I want you to know, I'll tell you on my own.

I'm hungry!!!!!

And stuck at school for another 3-4 hours!!!!


BOO!! Stupid crammed, cramped, chem lab.

:(

Yep. Sooo, life is pretty crazy right now. My parents are getting a divorce..I'm getting closer and closer to transferring to a university... Ahh, stress, how I love it...BLECK. And that's really all I have to say about it..hm..

The Giants won!!!!!!!! Yay!!!!!! My team won the Super Bowl!!!!! SWEEET! YESSS!!! :D

Now, I think I want some pizza...